Today is not an unusual day. It's only a monday and it happens every start of a new week.
However I did have a unusual happening this morning but first I want to tell you about my unusual gifts I was recieving from God in the past few weeks.
God has blessed me with apples... well at first I got a couple bags of yellow delicious, I shared them with some friends and i dried a few with my dehydrater. Then I got 4 bags of red delicious and two more bags of yellow. and I thought surely the Lord wants me to bless a larger group with these apples. So I donated some to our local homeless shelter. I dried some more and then was blessed with a few bags of Apples called Red Chief. which i had never ate before but they are out of this world and huge so I shared them with some friends and dried them. Then I was asked to make some apple crisps for this person that blessed me with these apples. I made her 3 so far.. and I plan on making more for who ever wants them.. :) Then I got about 6 more bags of fugi apples. and I am going to dry and make "apple what evers" as God has planned or brings to my mind.
So all though these blessing of apples, I have been asking God why? .. why apples, I know I've been praying for food, since I have very little to live on these days after my seperation. So I have been mostly living on apples.. :) my thinking is " A apple a day keeps the doctor away" guess they are very good for you.. so there you have it.. I was thinking..ok God is blessing me with food and health.
So this morning, as I said, it's not like any other morning but it was a morning of rememberance, sadness, and joy all mixed intogether. I had to get up early, so I can say my prayers, and Give thanks to God, then I had to head off to Divorce court... :(
As you all know I love my husband, and this divorce is his doing not mine. I have never wanted this divorce and he knew that as well. All I ever wanted was to work out our indifferences. But when the enemy gets deep into the camp, then he takes it over and claims it. Thats how I see how satan took my husband's "good heart" and turned him up side down and robbed every good moral sense in him and made John so unforgiving with a single minded heart and convinced him to end this marriage with Lies from the pit of hell. (but its not over till God says its over) and miracles do happen . I will continue to pray for his salvation and If God sees willing.. to restore our vows again.
Well here I am this morning when God spoke to me.. well not in a voice you hear with but with the inner voice. He said to me " You are the Apple of my eye."
I did not realize that all those apples could have a more significent meaning. But today its feel is "death and sorrow". Today I wore black for morning, Today my beloved husband signed away our marriage rights.
However, my heavenly Father came to me this morning.. as a father comes to his little girl right before she is to go face the world or an event so changing in her life that she didnt even know that she needed those words spoken, but right before I went out the door, He said " You are the apple of my eye".
For the first time ever, I realized God is not just God... almighty.. as He is but he is more.."amen" I can clearly see he is my Father.
{Deuteronomy 32:10
In a desert land he found him, in a barren and howling waste. He shielded him and cared for him; he guarded him as the apple of his eye,} i found this scripture.
God really loves me, and he knows the pain and heart ache and all I have endured this year on the behalf of my husbands unforgiveness and separation. Now I know I am taken care of and I am in the best hands anyone would ever want to be in .. I am in Gods hands, and I am " The apple of his eye."
I hope you all have a wonderful day today, God Bless my friends here and keep Loving and praying for one another..
Love your friend and sister in Christ
Kimberly
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